My name is Katie and I am obese and suffer from depression. OUCH! 😦 (I think that gets a double huge sad face!) I have struggled with my weight since I was a child. I don’t have all the answers but I know that a lot of my weight issues stem from more than just eating and not exercising. They come from my emotional health. It amazes me how much of how we react to the world, deal with the world is in fact set in around the lies that we think about ourselves. But I’m getting ahead of myself.
This recent journey started back in December when I had a chance to have gastric bypass. Little did I know what was coming. You see, I had given up, resigned to live life as a single obese woman. I didn’t know how to overcome the weight issues I have. So when given the chance I thought, OK, God has heard and God is moving!! One thing we must ALWAYS remember is that God has HIS own plan and it is never what we expect. I was due to go to Mexico at the end of December for our Big Feed, where we feed and share the Gospel with the poor of Matamoros, Mexico. Then in January I was headed to Nicaragua to our annual Medfest, where doctors and nurses and pharmacy techs give their time to treat the poor and share the Gospel. Because of the surgery, that I was sure was going to change my life, I figured these events were not going to happen for me.
But God had other plans, you see, to get ready for the surgery, I had to only eat yogurt 3 times a day for 4 days prior to the surgery. Finally it was scheduled for January 3rd! I was so excited! As the morning of the 3rd came I just knew this was it, God was changing my life!! But the 3rd came and went with no surgery. Then came the next Tuesday, this was definitely the day for the surgery! I was scared and nervous and excited. The big day dawned, full of promise, full of change, and it too came and went. It had been 10 days of only yogurt 3 times a day. And I was devastated to the point one of my friends sat in my bathroom with me as I just bawled my eyes out. I had faultily put all my hopes and promises on a surgery and a doctor. I did not put my faith and trust and hopes and desires in the one that is TRULY worthy of it. Three days later I found myself on a plane to Nicaragua. MY plans were not GOD’s.
Now months later, after starts and stops on this journey of life, I find myself full of the hope and promise of God! I have drawn nearer to God and I now know that I can lose weight and get a healthy mindset. Not because of me, but because of GOD. HE is made PERFECT in our weakness! I am SO weak!
I want, no, I NEED to share what I’m going through with you. I hope and pray that it will be of help to you. I am many things in this life. I wear many hats, from mom to worshipper, to missionary to janitor. That is what I do. Recently though, I felt like WHO am I in Christ? Who is Katie? Who has she become when she is no longer a woman of the world? This is gonna hurt. Because this blog is not about sugar coating and holding back. No, it’s about letting go and being open. Something that is truly hard for me. I like to be closed off from everyone, not letting a soul in. But that is not what God wants. So here it goes. All of me and this journey.
So in that it started. A journey. Of struggles, pain, and overcoming. Of Failing. Of Success. Sometimes I let myself down and sometimes I let others down. This is not just a journey to lose weight and get in shape. It’s my DESIRE to become better, to love Jesus and others more, to let God have His way in me. And to share Jesus, ALWAYS, through my words, actions, and love. Because all I truly want in this world, is to be the woman that God created me to be.
And what’s more? I’ve lost 24 pounds. It’s just a start. But it’s a good one!
I invite you to come with me on this journey. Come find out what He wants from us.
Hi, my name is Katie and I am a child of God, fearfully and wonderfully made.
May God Bless You